Remember by Skye Laverna

The funny thing is I recall all our memories,

Thinking it was only yesterday

When you called me baby,

Only to find the reminder on my phone

Saying "Remember this...?" from 6 years ago...

Now all alone, you're gone.

Off doing the things you said you'd do;

Meanwhile, I'm stuck in the rut

Trying to trust my gut

But being stuck in survival mode,

Can't even fight to save my life

So I catch the next available flight

Out of here, hurry before I freeze

At the gate, then I'm left to fawn

At the other person who should be in control.

Countless months and years, battling and reasoning

All for me to end up a flop,

No energy to try and flip it,

No time to rest, not even when the dawn

Comes in to relieve me of my duty

Trying to make my spirals dissipate,

The very thing that prevents me to rest

Now makes me irritable, and the battle resets.

All that remains is self-hate, and an overbearing feeling

That I should have this shit under control;

Instead, I drown myself in distractions

Because I have nobody to help work through the past actions

No matter how many transactions,

I don't have what it takes to initiate interactions again,

Not after all the lives I've lived with you...

-Skye Laverna